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Reviewer: Fire-in-her-veins Signed [Report This]
Date: Aug 04, 2015 11:08 am Title: Chapter 2

Wow. This is really profound. You have an absolutely phenomenal insight into what Michael's thought process could have been. I bet if you could read into his mind during that time in his life. Your descriptions of his chronic insomnia, how he can't keep anything down, the crying fits all emphasize how alone he was going through this. I mean completely, utterly alone. How does someone get to thar point where they have literally no one. I can't imagine having to go through that trial by himself with no support whatsoever. Sure he has his kids but they don't know what's going on and they can't be there. This is probably one of the more honest portrayals i've read of him where he's not put on some pedestal or exhibiting complete child like behavior. I like that Jenna doesn't like the peter pan act personally i think its immature and foolish of him to do that. She's critical without being downright mean. She's asked to pull an Olivia Pope (scandal) on him which means life or death for her career. Also I don't think he understands the gravity of this, he's so used to having someone 'fix' his problems for him he hasn't realized he has to work to fight this too. If he did get convicted he wouldn't last a week ending up dead or severely injured that is if the Arizos figured out how to forge evidence. I think Tom should have called him up to the stand so he could fight and defend for himself. I went through a similar situation no i wasn't accused of doing anything criminal, but i did have to fight for my freedom in a legal situation and I can't imagine having to go through that alone with just a lawyer. He's incredibly brave and courageous for being able to sit in that courtroom day after day and listen to people rip him to shreds. I love the detailed imagery you put in you really grasp well people's emotions and thought processes through tiny details like Jenna's mouth going dry and Michael wabting to didappear into the leather of his chair because he can't cope with this. I LOVED the response you came up with that he said to letting another reporter into his house. Like wow. I bet that is exactly what he would've said and felt about it. He's figured out that he can't trust anyone even if they have stellar credentials. Can't wait until he meets Jenna i feel like this will be really interesting. He'a going to try to scare her off and she's going to have to explain why she's not like other reporters. I dont think she should commit to this until she gets a feel for the situation i mean she already think she has the job when Michael has not fully agreed to doing this. Love this!! You did an amazing job! I wish i could write as well as you :)



Author's Response:

My Goodness what a review!!!!!!!!!!  I was shocked when I opened u my reviews this morning! 

Thank you so much!! I try ad place myself within his shoes ad try to authenticate what it must have been like to be in such a horrendous situation and have so much to lose.  It's incredible ow quickly overwhelming the emotions can be.  I can only imagine.  an your very right, he was TRULY alone. as you mentioned, he had his children yet they were so ignorant to how he was feeling, his family were absolutely distant, those around him didn’t truly understand, and that's what can be so crippling.  I'm glad you think my interpretation of this time period is honest and realistic, I was praying and hoping it relayed as such!  Makes me so excited!  I never anticipated this being as widely received as it has been, so thank you!

 

 

You bring up an interesting point and perhaps the desire to go watch Scandal.  Jenna I feel is very human.  She's not biased completely in love because he's Michael Jackson, she has no preconceived notion of his personality or anything.  and just like we all do, we have things we like and dislike about a person having not met them. There are things you mentioned especially about weather or not he'd last in the jail system and I like you feel he wouldn't last.  That life is never meant for him, thank the lord he never got a chance to experience it.  I was always interested as to how having his soul on hat stand would have faired.  Tom knew what he was doing I suppose lol! 

I'm sorry you've had to go through a similar situation must have been very stressful for you.  Yes I think you hit the nail on the head when looking between the lines and seeing how brave he'd truly been to swallow everything and face such a up close and personal demon.  (and yes I refer to the trial as a demon due to how much depression and oppression it caused). 

I am thrilled you love the detail especially those to which you picked out, I didn't even think twice about them so im appreciative you appreciate them!!  The journalist idea is something I think realistically would have neve taken place.  as there hadn't been a documentary since if you notice.  Thank you thank you!! :D :D such an awful experience to trust Bashir because od his documentary on the late Lady Di, and then to have that ugly documentary released everywhere.  It had to have been the most devastating thing ever.  Jenna and Michael's meeting is something im trying to carefully craft that chapter is full of emotions.. it's where the true rollercoaster begins. 

I love your suggestions of what he should consider and how she should conduct herself making sure she stands out and display her differences between her craft and other's.  So true and never considered it!  Thank you so much for this amazing review I live for comments such as these, I can't thank you enough for taking the time out to even write a review!  I'd love it if you could buckle up for the ride thats coming up, Fire!!!

Makes me very happy this site exist!

Chapter coming up shortly, perhaps early morning!!!