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Summary:

award winner

The centre of Michael's world crumples when Diane Hargrove discovers that her four year old child has been molested. Exhausted from the Bad Tour and the emotional highs and lows of dealing with his favourite little girl's complicated medical history, Michael finds everyone pointing the finger at him; accusing him of the unthinkable. With the weight of the world upon his shoulders, he struggles through grief and depression and the stress of being the someone that the world perceives him to be.

Scared of being alone, Michael enlists the company of number one fan, Malania Nakamura, who he feels like could just be the only other person on earth who understands his wounded heart. 

What will the future hold for Michael's freedom and for Malania's own troubled state of mind?


Rated: T
Categories: Award Winning, Romance, Trigger Warning! Characters: Original Girl
General Warnings: Graphic Depictions of Violence, Mild Violence, Nudity, Some Scenes of a Sexual Nature, Strong Language
Trigger Warnings: Alcohol Abuse, Anorexia, Attempted Suicide, Domestic Abuse, Drug Abuse, Rape, Self-Harm, Sexual Abuse, Suicide
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 71 Completed: No
Word count: 318986 Read: 65997
Published: Jan 31, 2015 Updated: Jun 12, 2017
Story Notes:

This story contains adult situations. 

Trigger warnings include: Self harm, suicide, depression, eating disorders, drug use and sexual abuse. 

1. Prologue by SkyWriter [Reviews - 8] starstarstarstar (636 words)

2. Chapter 1 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 17] starstarstarstarstar (2420 words)

3. Chapter 2 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 4] starstarstarstarhalf-star (3305 words)

4. Chapter 3 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (5057 words)

5. Chapter 4 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (3924 words)

6. Chapter 5 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (3217 words)

7. Chapter 6 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (4988 words)

8. Chapter 7 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (3674 words)

9. Chapter 8 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (4476 words)

10. Chapter 9 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (5064 words)

11. Chapter 10 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (4817 words)

 

12. Chapter 11 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (4061 words)

13. Chapter 12 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 4] starstarstarstarstar (4979 words)

14. Chapter 13 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 4] starstarstarstarstar (4403 words)

15. Chapter 14 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 5] starstarstarstarstar (5132 words)

16. Chapter 15 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 5] starstarstarstar (3592 words)

Michael can be such a dick.... lol. 

17. Chapter 16 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 0] (4109 words)

18. Chapter 17 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (4464 words)

19. Chapter 18 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 1] starstarstarstarstar (4677 words)

This chapter has adult themes... 

** Thank you to all the new people reading and leaving reviews. I love receiving feed back, so please feel free to leave any critisisms or compliments. I am slowly getting thru posting chapters (I have completed around 44) and am updated them every few days, so if you would like to see certain things or feel like the story might benefit from something, let me know! I'm not easily offended :) 

20. Chapter 19 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (4141 words)

* Trigger warnings for this chapter. Suicide, self-injury, sexual abuse and ED themes. If you feel like you might be bothered by any of these things, please do not read this chapter.
** Thank you to all the new people reading and leaving reviews. I love receiving feed back, so please feel free to leave any critisisms or compliments. I am slowly getting thru posting chapters (I have completed around 44) and am updated them every few days, so if you would like to see certain things or feel like the story might benefit from something, let me know! I'm not easily offended :) 

21. Chapter 20 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (4448 words)

* Trigger warnings for this chapter. Suicide, self-injury, sexual abuse and ED themes. If you feel like you might be bothered by any of these things, please do not read this chapter.
** Thank you to all the new people reading and leaving reviews. I love receiving feed back, so please feel free to leave any critisisms or compliments. I am slowly getting thru posting chapters (I have completed around 44) and am updated them every few days, so if you would like to see certain things or feel like the story might benefit from something, let me know! I'm not easily offended :) 

22. Chapter 21 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 1] starstarstarstarstar (3003 words)

* Trigger warnings for this chapter. Suicide, self-injury, sexual abuse and ED themes. If you feel like you might be bothered by any of these things, please do not read this chapter.
** Thank you to all the new people reading and leaving reviews. I love receiving feed back, so please feel free to leave any critisisms or compliments. I am slowly getting thru posting chapters (I have completed around 44) and am updated them every few days, so if you would like to see certain things or feel like the story might benefit from something, let me know! I'm not easily offended :) 

23. Chapter 22 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 1] starstarstarstarstar (4933 words)

* Trigger warnings for this chapter. Suicide, self-injury, sexual abuse and ED themes. If you feel like you might be bothered by any of these things, please do not read this chapter.
** Thank you to all the new people reading and leaving reviews. I love receiving feed back, so please feel free to leave any critisisms or compliments. I am slowly getting thru posting chapters (I have completed around 44) and am updated them every few days, so if you would like to see certain things or feel like the story might benefit from something, let me know! I'm not easily offended :) 

24. Chapter 23 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (6317 words)

* Trigger warnings for this chapter. Suicide, self-injury, sexual abuse and ED themes. If you feel like you might be bothered by any of these things, please do not read this chapter.
** Thank you to all the new people reading and leaving reviews. I love receiving feed back, so please feel free to leave any critisisms or compliments. I am slowly getting thru posting chapters (I have completed around 44) and am updated them every few days, so if you would like to see certain things or feel like the story might benefit from something, let me know! I'm not easily offended :) 

25. Chapter 24 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 1] starstarstarstarstar (4833 words)

* Trigger warnings for this chapter. Suicide, self-injury, sexual abuse and ED themes. If you feel like you might be bothered by any of these things, please do not read this chapter.
** Thank you to all the new people reading and leaving reviews. I love receiving feed back, so please feel free to leave any critisisms or compliments. I am slowly getting thru posting chapters (I have completed around 44) and am updated them every few days, so if you would like to see certain things or feel like the story might benefit from something, let me know! I'm not easily offended :) 

26. Chapter 25 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (3647 words)

This chapter is written from Diane's perspective :) 

27. Chapter 26 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (5311 words)

Please leave a review or rate my chapter! :) Thanks for reading!! 

28. Chapter 27 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 1] starstarstarstarstar (4799 words)

Please leave a review or a rating if you love this chapter! Honesty and critisism always welcomed :) Thanks for reading!

29. Chapter 28 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (4727 words)

Please leave a review or a rating if you like this chapter :) Remember that I appreciate honesty and critisisms!

Thanks for reading.

30. Chapter 29 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 4] starstarstarstarstar (6198 words)

* Trigger warnings for this chapter. Suicide, self-injury, sexual abuse and ED themes. If you feel like you might be bothered by any of these things, please do not read this chapter.
** Thank you to all the new people reading and leaving reviews. I love receiving feed back, so please feel free to leave any critisisms or compliments. I am slowly getting thru posting chapters (I have completed around 44) and am updated them every few days, so if you would like to see certain things or feel like the story might benefit from something, let me know! I'm not easily offended :) 

31. Chapter 30 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 0] (4818 words)

32. Chapter 31 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (4413 words)

33. Chapter 32 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (4380 words)

Sorry that its been awhile since updating, I have had a lot of RL stuff going on :) 

34. Chapter 33 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (4717 words)

Please leave a comment if you like this chapter :)

35. Chapter 34 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 1] starstarstarstarstar (4240 words)

Ok here we go, a new chapter. Please review and let me know if you loved it, hated it etc. I don't mind constructive critisisms :) 

36. Chapter 35 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 1] starstarstarstarstar (3952 words)

Please leave a review if you like this story :)

Sorry if Ive been slow to reply to your reviews btw. I just have limited time to post these chapters, but I promise I will get to it and I love to read them so much!! 

37. Chapter 36 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 1] starstarstarstarstar (4306 words)

Sorry its taken so long to update, my computer screen was smashed by a certain 9kg cat.... that bastard better take on a fucking paper route to pay the $500+ it cost for repairs....

38. Chapter 37 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 1] starstarstarstarstar (3938 words)

I'm really sorry that its been so long since I've updated this story, but I've been so busy with r/l. Work, having interstate visitors and trying to figure out my study load. 

I am back and updating though, please enjoy my next chapter.

As usual I would love to hear your feed back; the good, bad and ugly :) 

39. Chapter 38 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 4] starstarstarstarstar (4412 words)

Roll call! Is anyone actually here still!?! lol

40. Chapter 39 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (5547 words)

here's a new chapter. all feedback is good :) 

41. Chapter 40 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (5237 words)

Here's a new chapter... Have had a really rough week, but wanted to update this for you all. Hope you all had a better week than me, and hope this starts you all off on a good foot :)

xxx

42. Chapter 41 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 0] (5167 words)

43. Chapter 42 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 5] starstarstarstarstar (4154 words)

updated, finally :) 

 

44. Chapter 43 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 5] starstarstarstarstar (4955 words)

Lots of trigger warnings for this chapter. 

45. Chapter 44 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (4606 words)

Trigger warning for this chapter, guys. 

46. Chapter 45 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (5103 words)

Thanks for all the reviews, folks. I love to read them. :) I hope you enjoy this chapter.

47. Chapter 46 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (5238 words)

We're up to chapt 46 yay! enjoy and thank you all for your lovely comments. :) 

48. Chapter 47 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (4304 words)

"The blond, groomed host smiled her thin, villainous lips at the camera and tucked her hair behind her ear. “Well, who knows,” she spoke to her aging side-kick, “maybe this is all just a publicity stunt for Jackson to seem a little more… digestible in public.”"

....so Malania is all over the media, how long until someone from her treatment centre will find out? 

49. Chapter 48 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstar (3953 words)

I cant remember if this chapter has any triggers, but just please be aware. Also thank you for all your kind reviews. I love to read them and value each one of them even if I don't immediately have the time to reply. 

And zOmg. I finally hit the double number reviews! haha, I was so excited by that! Thanks everyone :) 

50. Chapter 49 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (4508 words)

This is the hidden adventure of Michael and Malania hanging out in the "trauma tree" -- the tree formerly known as The Giving Tree.

51. Chapter 50 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 1] (5186 words)

52. Chapter 51 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (4685 words)

meeting the family! will Katherine like Malania? My guess is, no one has ever been good enough for her son! hahaha. As usual thoughts and reviews are welcomed. 
I have written so many chapters of this story before I started posting here -- but I'm up to my last few. I'm just finished chapter 56, so.... please keep reading and be patient with me. Tossing up a lot on my plate. :) 

53. Chapter 52 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 1] (3944 words)

One more for good measure. 

54. Chapter 53 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 4] starstarstarstarstar (6456 words)

Here's chapter 53 -- please leave feedback :) I try to make it a habit to reply to all of my feedback because its really encouraging to read as a writer and keeps me motivated to update! 

Hope everyone is having a great week. I'll post chapter 54 in a few days time. 

x

55. Chapter 54 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (4012 words)

When I didn’t answer, he raised his voice, “Well? Do you? Does the idea of going to jail appeal to you?”

“NO!” I shouted, finally. The idea, quite frankly made my pulse quicken and made my throat close up and the breathing that I was trying to do became very difficult. 

Ruh-roh! What silly thing has Michael done! This chapter is one full of emotion and anger. I'm kind of excited to see what everyone thinks :) Thanks in advance for your reviews & ratings! <3 

56. Chapter 55 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 4] starstarstarstarstar (4666 words)

I think there are some triggers in these next few chapters, so if you are easily triggered by abuse, sexual or other, please refrain from reading this chapter. 

57. Chapter 56 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (4414 words)

If you are easily triggered by drug abuse or physical abuse both sexual or other, please skip this chapter. 

58. Chapter 57 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (4327 words)

Lol, sorry for anyone who read chapter 58-- I missed posting chapter 57. Deleted chapt 58 ... again, poured my heart in to this one! Lemme know what you think! If you're triggered by drug use, suicide, cutting or any kind of abuse, please skip this chapter!

59. Chapter 58 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (4174 words)

I accidentally posted this the other day...oops! Anyway, here is chapter 58 -- enjoy.

60. Chapter 59 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (4595 words)

I have to let you know -- some of the chapters may be a bit slower to come out in the future. I have just taken on new work hours that begin monday and I am still trying to finish school and have a social life, etc. Please be patient and feel free to leave me some suggestions because I am fast running out of ideas :)

 

61. Chapter 60 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 4] starstarstarstarstar (4339 words)

Will Michael recover? :D

62. Chapter 61 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (3755 words)

Okay folks, I'm BACK from my hiatus. Things will be er... heating up, between these two over the next few chapters :) Enjoy and please leave me some feedback :) 

63. Chapter 62 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 6] starstarstarstarstar (4105 words)

As some of you know this story went to somewhat of a hiatus due to home life being up in the air with my mums ill-health. I think I need to start channelling my stress in to my writing or else Ill end up the size of a house with all of my stress eating, lol. So I'm back.... I think. I really want to spend the time to finish this story... and then Ill focus on finishing STT. 

Thanks for being so patient and for the emails and kindness I've received while I've been "away" ...so please enjoy this chapter. I just sat here and re-read it and it gave me a silly grin... good lord I miss Michael. 

64. Chapter 63 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 4] starstarstarstarstar (4188 words)

Here's the next chapter, folks! Hope you all managed to get over the fact that Malania ate chicken at the restaurant. Hahahahahaha. <3

65. Chapter 64 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 3] starstarstarstarstar (5078 words)

Theyre getting it onnnn! .... Or are they!? :D 

66. Chapter 65 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 7] starstarstarstarstar (8116 words)

Its finally happening folks. This is one long-ass chapter. So get strapped in (hehe) and this is where Michael gets to pull all the cobwebs off of his penis uses it. I apologise if its cheesy.... sort of haha. Ok leave reviews pls.

 

 

67. Chapter 66 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 5] starstarstarstarstar (4083 words)

Round two. Bow chicka wowowwww. 

Joking, this is not a porn. I repeat, this is not a porn.

Much. :)

68. Chapter 67 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 5] starstarstarstarstar (5448 words)

What happens when you don't wear a protection!? 

Whoopsie doodle! 

69. Chapter 68 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (3062 words)

I want to apologise for leaving this story hanging. There have been a lot of things going on in my life over the past 12 months and especially in the past 6 months that left me unable or unwilling to write. 

If you read my "blog" style posts you'll have known what was going on in my life and at times its really hard to be able to focus on anything that isn't my family and what we're going through. Getting through day-to-day is hard enough. 

In saying all that, I wanted to post something for the anniversary, so I wrote this chapter and maybe it'll fuel a need to continue on. Hope you all enjoy.... 

70. Chapter 69 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (4591 words)

Okay so I think I posted this, but with all the MJfiction mess ups that happened while we were transferring the site, I think the actual chapter disappeared -- so here it is again and I apologise for those of you who have already read it -- I'll have another one posted over the next few days. 

 

71. Chapter 70 by SkyWriter [Reviews - 6] starstarstarstarstar (4462 words)

Life is weird. I wrote this chapter some time ago, excuse me if its a little rough. Speaking of, life has been somewhat rough. I still log in here a couple times a week but with new stuff at work, dealing with losing my Mum and associated baggage and anxiety, I am struggling to focus on the upkeep of this site as its not the giant priority that it was over the past few years. I apologise for that.... anyway, please enjoy this chapter. I have half written another one, maybe i'll get it up soon. It's my hope that I can finish this at some point in the not-too-distant future.