June 10th 1986 - 5:00 pm

Michael & I walk into my hotel room, really quietly as if someone had died. Michael takes out a pregnancy test for me to take & he says

"I hope whatever you want the results to be, it turns out to be that way."

"Thank you."

I walk into the bathroom, close the door behind me & read the directions to the test. According to what the test says, if I'm pregnant a smiley face comes on & if I am not pregnant a sad faces comes on. Okay, this pregnancy test just couldn't get any more corny. I take the test & now it's determining weather I am pregnant or not. Okay, the results came & now it's time for me to tell Michael. I left the bathroom, walking towards Michael & I say

"So I'm not pregnant."

"So, is that a good thing?"

"It's great. I mean, don't get me wrong, I do want to have kids, but not by getting raped. I'm happy about this."

"Well that's great." He hugs me & says

"I'm glad your happy now."

"Not exactly. I still have tonight to worry about."

"Kitty, don't worry I'm sure your 100% clean. I'm sure if you had something you'd be feeling the effects by now."

"But well Michael, you can never be too sure."

"Well that's why you took the tests, to be sure."

I let go of Michael, & I walk towards the bed sitting on the edge.

"Your right Michael, but I have to worry about this, until I know I'm completely sure I'm clean."

He sits next to me on the bed & says

"Okay Kitty."

There was a silence between us until he finally says

"Want to talk?"

"Sure." I lay down on the bed & continue saying

"What do you want to talk about?"

He lays down on the bed too & asks

"Ah, what's your favorite color?"

"Pink, yours?"

"Red."

"I see why, it looks really good on you."

He laughs at my comment & says "Thank you." Then he asks me

"Aren't you still in High school? Shouldn't you be getting ready for graduating?"

"no, I graduated last year, when I was 16. I was in college but I told my mom to take me out, since I haven't attended a class since I've been here in LA, which has been awhile."

"Graduated when you were 16? Wow, you must be really intelligent."

"No, I wasn't all that amazing. I never skipped a grade, my mom just enrolled me in school when I was 2, & so the story goes on there."

"Your still more advanced in your age Kitty. Do you miss college?"

"No I'm glad I don't have to go back, a hell of allot of work. Hah."

"But hard work pays off in the end."

"Yeah but I don't need it since I'm going to be a singer."

"Oh yeah but still you can get a degree just for a formal education. How's it like living in the city?"

"Then you go get one Michael. & It's okay, it isn't that fascinating once you've gotten used to it, I lived there all my life, bright lights & sky scrapers are the norm."

"I'll think about that, So how do you feel now that your in California? Different huh?"

"Yeah, when I first just came here with my ex-boyfriend, I felt like I was in a brand new world, it's so quiet here. But I love it. I love the quiet."

"Oh me too."

"That's another thing we have in common, Mike."

"yes, & I'm sure there's more to come."

"Yep."

"So, don't mean to be nosey but, why are you traveling with your ex? Especially for such a long time? Haven't you been here since May?"

"Your not being nosey, Mike, your just making conversation & your a little curious, but it's all good."

He giggled at my comment & says "Thanks."

"So yes I've been here since May & he wasn't my ex at the time, he is now."

"Why?"

"Well…..I'd say it all kind of started back in 1982, We were sophomores in high school. I was 14 & he was 15, we went to the same high school together, & we dated since the year before 1981, so then it was a year since we've been together. One night we were on his bed making out, & he had gotten a little…..you know…."

"No, I don't know. He had gotten a little what?" He laughs, at his little joke & says "No, I know what you mean. Continue."

"Nice jokes Michael, Nice jokes."

"I bet your jealous."

"Mhm. Very." I rolled my eyes & laughed at my own sarcasm. & continued saying

"So anyways, He asked if I could sleep with him & I declined, & he had gotten really annoyed with that. But I just figured, he'd get over it. So one day, I decided I wanted to wait until marriage to have sex & when I told him all he had say was 'I can't wait until we get married so we can finally have sex.' & I felt so disgusted, I was like 'your going to marry me just for sex? Not because you love me?' At the time I didn't know that was a clear sign for what's to come in the future. Then in 1984, his so called niece was born. Now We fast - forward to a week ago, I caught him in our hotel bed with a former classmate named Chastity. When I caught him, he came out about his 'niece' that he & Chastity are the parents of the baby. So therefore, since he's obviously moved on with his life, I knew I had to leave that hotel because more then likely he'd try & woo me back to him, so that's how I ended up homeless."

"Wow…how did you feel when you found out he cheated on you? Were you shocked or did you have a feeling all along this day would come?"

"Hmm. Well, over the years I worried that he might cheat on me because of how he felt about my abstinence. But, I wasn't exactly sure…..Plus he had a baby back in 1984, he was cheating on me for such a long time & I had no idea. When I finally came to it & caught him in the act, I felt horrible. I really thought he was the one."

"Aw Kitty, do you still feel sad about it or your over it?"

"Well, I can't say I'm 100% over it because I'm not, but having you around really does help."

"Aw, well I'm glad I help. It's a shame, that gorgeous looking girls like you get cheated on."

"Gorgeous? You must be smoking something!"

"Yeah, I smoke my loafers at night, but don't tell anyone, it's a secret. Okay?"

We laugh at our little jokes, seems like no matter how serious the conversation gets, we seem to end up being all playfully in less then a second. & Michael says

"But seriously Kitty, don't you realize how beautiful you are?"

"No, I'm not that pretty."

"Kitty don't say that, you are beautiful. Don't let anyone, make you believe differently."

"Aw Michael, your so sweet."

"It's not about being 'sweet' it's about telling the truth." He caresses my cheek & I hold on to him, cuddling on to him, & I kiss him on the cheek. We gotten a little quiet until he asks

"So, can you sing me a song Kitty?"

"Ah, No."

"Why not?"

"Because…."

"Because what?"

"I don't want to sing a whole song, Michael."

"Okay, how about a verse?"

"That's too long."

"No it's not."

"Okay, Okay, I'll sing you a little something."

I take a deep breath & I'll just sing whatever song verse comes to mind

"If I told you Baby

That I was in love with you

Oh, Baby, Baby, Baby

If we got married - Would that be cool?"

"Aw, I so love your high pitched voice, you sounded lovely."

"Thank you so much."

"And, I wouldn't mind marrying you, when your of age."

"Aw, really?"

"Yes, Really."

"I wonder what Tatiana, thinks about this."

"Well like you said this morning, 'why do you care? Tatiana isn't here right now, so have no fear."

"Oh Yeah, I totally forgot about that."

We laugh & he says

"You forgot that? Man I can imagine you at my age, your going to be one old lady." He joked. I playfully punch him on the shoulder.

"Hey, just for that punch I want you to sing another verse."

"Okay, Michael we'll have it your way." I cleared my throat & took another deep breathe & sing

"Although your never near

Your voice I often hear

Another Day, Another Night

I long to hold you tight

'Cause I'm so lonely

Baby I need your lovin

Got to have all your lovin

Baby I need your lovin

Got To have all your lovin"

"You sound so pretty, Kitty. You have such a nice voice."

"Aw, thank you Michael."

"Your welcome."

June 10th 1986 - 11:50 pm

Butterflies arouse my stomach as I knew time was near to 12 am. I'm in the shower, passing time, thinking if I went & took a shower my nervousness would go away, but in fact it got quite worse. I got out of the shower & dried myself as I heard Michael talking on the phone to someone….

"Listen to me for one minute please…" Michael says as he's on the phone.

I needed something to divert my attention from my results tonight, so I decided to eavesdrop on the conversation, putting my head against the door.

"Baby, please don't do this. Just let me explain."

Baby? Who's he talking to? Oh right, Tatiana. I wonder what's going on between them.

"But please, don't do this. Please…."

Aw, poor baby, I wonder what's going on between them. I then hear him hang up the phone. Gee, he must be pretty sad right now. I'd run out there & comfort him right away but I don't want to come off like I've been eavesdropping. I'll put on my PJ's & walk out there like I have no idea what just happened. Which I did just that. I walk out of the bathroom & I see Michael sitting by the phone sighing, so I ask

"What's wrong Michael?" Pretending I am completely ignorant of the phone conversation.

"I really don't know." He answers me. I crawl across the bed & sit right next to him.

"What do you mean?"

"Just me & Tatiana having some problems."

"Why?"

"She's complaining about me not calling her often & checking up on her, but it's not that I don't care I just thought she was busy where she is. But she doesn't want to hear that."

"Aw, Michael, maybe she just misses you allot…"

"I guess so…"

I hug him tightly & said

"Everything will be fine Michael."

He hugs back & says "Thanks."

The phone rings again & he says

"This one is probably for you Kitty."

"Oh God." I quickly crawled under the covers & scream

"You answer it for me!"

"Okay.."

I am deathly afraid of those results, I can't answer the phone & I don't want to. I hope whatever, it is Michael is able to hear it.

"Hello" Michael answers the phone

He hands the phone over to me & says "Okay, you can't hide from the phone any longer they want you on." Damn it! As I thought I could have been saved I have to hear it first hand.

"Hello" I said as I got the phone into my hands

"Hello Ms. Genovese?"

"Yes M'am."

"Okay, so we got all the test results of the tests you earlier today, & you have been tested negative for all sexual transmitted diseases."

"What does that mean?

"That means you are not infected with any sexual diseases Ms. Genovese."

I gasped & say

"Really?"

"Yes, really. Now Have a goodnight!" Then the doctor hangs up the phone.

"YESS!" I scream as I hug Michael & we end up rolling all over the bed because of my crazy excitement. We roll, & roll & roll until we end up rolling right off the bed.

"AOW!" I scream when I landed on my back

"Are you okay, Kitty?"

"I'm okay."

"Let me get off you." he says as he picked himself up & then helps me up. I immediately hug him again, putting all of my body pressure on him, making us fall again on the bed, with me on top this time.

"Michael, I'm just so happy right now it's unreal!"

"See I told you, everything will be okay Kitty!"

"Yes you did. I'm going to listen to whatever you say for now on."

"Hey you better or you'll get…."

"I'll get what?"

"You'll get….

It gets really quiet for a split second & I'm wondering what the hell I'm I going to get. Then I hear a loud spank on my behind, & I scream really quickly & he says

"You'll get spanked for not doing so."

"Oh is that so?"

"Better believe it."

"Well then I don't mind being a bad girl…..Rawr!"

We laugh at each other playfully joking around with each other. I wonder, was that spank more of a flirt? Or was it more of a playful thing? Now I'm not exactly sure if Michael's interested in me or not but, he kind of gives me a message that he has some kind of crush on me, just a minute ago. Not that I mind it all, I have a huge one on him, but Gee, I hope whatever feelings he may have or may not have for me doesn't get in the way of what he has with Tatiana.