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Giving a "Voice" to the Universe that the mind creates. My stories are just a look into the lives untold.
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Story #1 in the Seven Secrets Series
"Our souls mirror one another's eerily. Our demons dance with eachother sensually in our paradise with skies the color of hell-flames. We could either find our bliss together on the narrow path of hope, or dance deliriously down the wide open path of destruction."
The King of Pop has been the subject of Amber's Starr Esposito's intense passions since she was an awkward and excitable adolescent. Her obsession with the troubled, controversial mega star alienates her from the people around her until her destiny sweeps her up into a whirlwind of love, insanity and drama with the man of her dreams. It is a bizzare chain of events that brings them together, and they end up sharing deep secrets and intense intimacy. She can't believe her luck, but she wants to be more than his secret girlfriend. She longs to be his proper wife and although he loves and cares deeply for her, he knows she can't handle the paparazzi onslaught that will result if they reveal their secret to the public. But then again, things change . . .life happens . . .you never know . . .There can be no certainty of where the path they clear together will lead them, or of whether or not they will even survive each other along the way.
Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. No money is being made from this work. No copyright infringement is intended.
Categories: Invincible: 2000-2003
Characters: Michael, Original Girl
General Warnings: Mild Violence, Nudity, Some Scenes of an Explicit Sexual Nature, Strong Language
Trigger Warnings: Alcohol Abuse, Anorexia, Attempted Suicide, Death, Drug Abuse, Emotional Abuse, Physical Abuse, Self-Harm
Series: Seven Secrets
Chapters: 38 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 119597 Read Count: 11723
Date: Jan 31, 2016 Title: Chapter 8: Chapter 8 - Needed
Another amazing chapter! You know, I can absolutely understand and find the realism astounding when it comes to the body dismorphia (sp?) That he carried with himself. It's beautiful to see not only is she trying to rebuild his confidence and truly show him there is indeed nothing horrid to his appearemce, but to try and break down everyone's negative conclusion of him.
He was already feeling miserable about us appearemce and Trudy was astoundingly offensive and dare I say unprofessional. Nothing like being called degrading names, not only picking you apart but creating a plastic molding.of your features due to them not looking "good enough".
This story has me indulging in my feelingshere haha this cliff hanger is something seriois. Kindred souls Amber and Michael! And again with the passionate and tantalizing description when it cane to the intimacy. .. my goodness!
(BTW to answer your previous question I had been MIA quite a while due to my own ailments but I am back 100% and very happy that days I'm ailing abit recently I'm able to forget my reality and delve into works of art like yours! Bless you for even recognizing my short depature! That's sweet :) :) truly!) (Mjfiction should have where we can respond to authors redponses)!
Author's Response:
His BDD was pretty well known. I guess being under the public microscope would drive anyone crazy. I still can't understand how people called him ugly, though. It makes no sense to me. Sometimes I can't stop looking at his pictures (from his older years). I think he was always beautiful. I don't get people sometimes, lol!
I'm hoping you get better really soon! *hugs*
Date: Feb 07, 2016 Title: Chapter 11: Chapter 11 - Manic
Oh my God I definitely felt the manic expression and all of this. Misty wonder what is going to happen in the next chapter I'm still hooked just as much as I've ever been. I love seeing her pay it forward and giving back in a way that has helped her! Kevin seemed like such an established man, reading it was sad knowing he in his own way was kind of orphaned. The fall from grace if you will was also sad such a beautiful mind, honeless. At least now he has a second chance!! Hopefully being the humanitarian Michael is,he'll understand!
Wow I have to say she was bold giving him a kiss as she did! I'm slightly worried for her because there was an implication he was awake during some of her revelation but also excited because we get to see the first few bits and pieces of their physical interaction on a sexual level.
i love this! Praying she won't get fired!!
Author's Response:
Yes, she does get manic, she over thinks and has a strong sense of guilt. She saw the track marks on the man's arms and saw herself. <\3
Oh, fyi, Kevin will be back :)
That kiss was like a fun, relatable thing - like, would you do it if you had the chance? I totally would! Can you imagine! Lol
Date: Feb 02, 2016 Title: Chapter 9: Chapter 9 - Damaged
Thks chapter was gripping! My goodness there is such a unique but likely parallel between them with running away and drowning their emotions in such an awful capacity. thank goodness in a twisted way for Hrave being there in order to save his life. Allow me to mention, it reminded me of when Miss Paris told the stories of Grace doing exactly what you described. Forcing her way to where he's been so much so he shipped her to Africa for a while *chuckles*. She rings me as hopelessly smitten.
as far as their argument, I wouldn't even consider that an argument at all but more of an awakening with him trying to identify himself to her as someone she could communicate on such a level beyond anyone's. I can see why she felt that way, she's still so incredibly sensitive toward him!
i absolutely love this story to pieces. It is seriously my favorite.
Author's Response:
Thank you :) And yes, I got that story from Paris. I thought it was really interesting. Gosh, I just felt bad for Grace. I don't know what I would have done if it was me. It would be so painful being with him all the time and raising his kids if he didn't like me that way, lol
Date: Feb 02, 2016 Title: Chapter 9: Chapter 9 - Damaged
Something else I left out! I was so excited to see house as one of the characters in this story!!! I am a huge long time fan of the series so had me grinning his sarcastic, harsh, unimaginable wit was portrayed wonderfully!!!
Author's Response:
Thanks! I was worried about doing justice to House's dialog because he's so damn witty, lol
Date: Feb 02, 2016 Title: Chapter 10: Chapter 10 - Suffering
Ahh! Loved this as always, yet heres some things I loved, I love the fact of ho you preented pills being thrown into the lake, the symbolic meaning of it. Both of them throwing away pills for thing they love, things and people they dont desire to hurt, their future and honestly survival. I've never seen anything wirtten like this in mny other stories not only incredibly unique but very pivotal for the characters!
Very sweet how even though thei time in the 'normal' world if you will was inturrupted it was still a wonderful moment for them I love how you captued yet again the humanitarian side of things that even in the face of a drug addicted strung ouut man he didnt desire to inflict or add to that mans suffering only waned to help.
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I was close enough to him to feel his pulse when it accelerated. His breaths got shorter. I felt pleasantly feverish. Both of our body temperatures rose and there was actual heat between us. Actual palpable evidence that we both wanted something to happen. He had to be interested, at least physically. I was way past interested and had long since moved on to voracious. I was suffering for him, like I always knew I would be.
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and so it begins! the closeness, the attraction, that doesn seem to be only on her end of thing anymore. Buiding tension such as this is one of my favorite things abouut stoies such as yours. Sometime it can be just as enthralling if not more than the actual intimate scenes themselves. Something very intimate about being within that friendship boundry, and feeling that intensity, but knowing the attraction is strong all driven in the name of pulse and body heat.
Author's Response:
Yeah, Michael had a different way of doing things, but his problem was a lack of self preservation, I think.
And I wanted to show how adorably skittish he is about love after being f'd over so many times. It was like he protected his feelings but not his safety. Kind of contradictory I guess.
Date: Feb 10, 2016 Title: Chapter 16: Chapter 16 - Hopeless
Firstly it was wonderful tha her friend kind of came to her side. In wondering by the description of him is he someone that will be a character in up coming chapters as a source of a distraction for her.. He seems very mellow, level headed and sweet
oh my god at the message she sent Michael, she finally opened up!! Why am I nervous to see if he responded god I pray he felt the same!!
Author's Response:
Thanks :) Her old friend is just kind of neutral. That message - omg, yes very nerve wracking!
This is A Sequel to the story 'But What If'
Michael battles his hardest times ever, going back into the details of his childhood and possibly battling with himself about the streetlife....But with Kai by his side and going through her own struggles, Will they be able to stay together through it all or is it a chance that they will fall apart and go seperate ways for good..
Maybe they moved too fast?
Maybe Their relationship is temporary?
Will the he say she say bring them closer or stray them away?
Love &Other Things....
Categories: Adult, Hurt/Comfort, Humor, Romance
Characters: Michael, Original Girl
General Warnings: Mild Violence, Nudity, Some Scenes of a Sexual Nature, Some Scenes of an Explicit Sexual Nature, Strong Language
Trigger Warnings: Death
Series: None
Chapters: 68 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 245730 Read Count: 14585
Date: Aug 02, 2015 Title: Chapter 1: LAOT: Love In Competition
Hey there!! Youve got yourself a new reader!!! Please continue shortly girl!!!
Graphic made by me :)
Would you allow a forbidden love to blossom in the wake of one of the most life career changing moves of your life? A move World renown award winning journalist Jenna Hall questioned as she took on the interview/documentary of a lifetime. Choosing to revamp/reconstruct the public persona of a man going through one of the most difficult time of his life for the second time. Fearing the worse, Jenna takes on the interview as their connection takes a turn never expected. Only one thing stands in the way, Media presence and the risk to entirely bankrupt their careers. The First Book in a story of lust, power, betrayal and forbidden boundaries.
“Take me as I am….” Tears as of bright crystals slipped from along his eyes racing down his cheekbones leaving a trail of pain behind as I could visibly see the trembling of his flesh. “I’m human Jenna… I can’t change the cards life dealt…”
Life's cruel way of pawning two people in nearly impossible circumstances.
“I… I don’t know… Michael.. I don’t know…” Tears raced along my jaw, dropping along my clothing as I too trembled. The entirety of my entire life…everything, hung in the balance. The scale of Love, loss, security, utter chaos was entangled within every option imaginable. Walking away however, logically confined me. I cannot choose… I simply cannot.
UPDATE: JULY 10TH 2018 :)
Categories: 2003-2005, This Is It: 2006-2009, Adult, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Romance, Trigger Warning!
Characters: Michael, Original Girl
General Warnings: Erotica, Graphic Depictions of Violence, Mild Violence, Nudity, Some Scenes of a Sexual Nature, Some Scenes of an Explicit Sexual Nature, Strong Language
Trigger Warnings: Alcohol Abuse, Anorexia, Attempted Suicide, Drug Abuse, Emotional Abuse
Series: None
Chapters: 11 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 41497 Read Count: 3957
Date: Dec 02, 2015 Title: Chapter 5: Chapter 5 - My Heartache
Hello Lorry!!
I know I am so sorry, between a huge move and a really nasty illness and hospital stays, I'm doing so much better! I thank you for reading the chapter! I didn't desire to go too harsh, after all she's a nervous wreck and he's incredibly touchy. I really can't wait to showcase the dynamic of the interviewing and how it'll change throughout the story. And yes, often in fiction I never really see the children mentioned and there obviously had to be an impact at a time or another. But I'm so glad you picked up on the emotional intuition of Miss paris! More is on the way shortly! I've been working vigorously!!!! :D :D
Thank you for staying loyal after 4 months haha! You're loved!
MJF Awards
<3Much love and appreciation <3
Positive response makes me feel like a unicorn, indifference makes me feel like a donkey with a plunger stuck to my face, so if you feel like sharing, please do. I'll love you for it 😊
My super, secret blog that no one knows about but you all :) My first blog ever! I have no idea how to do this, but I hope you like it :) At least I can say it's totally visceral and uncontrived, only for purposes of expression. As you will see there are no ads with pictures of bikini - clad girls in handcuffs or pill ads promising to take 250 pounds off in 3 months with no diet or exercise inside. This blog is just me holding metaphorical defibrillator paddles, trying desperately to revive human honesty.
Categories: Journal
Characters: None
General Warnings: None
Trigger Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 11 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 5596 Read Count: 756
Date: Feb 01, 2016 Title: Chapter 7: My Michael Drawings
I absolutey love these!! It's not often I get to see Art from th fans!
I love Your work with TDCABU. The colors are very rich, im also loving the fact that as a fellow artist myself it's very difficult to try and draw that particular image! Very intense skill set to be able to! Its my favorite one that you've drawn here and the porprotions in this one s very nice!
You should definately continue on with your artwork! What are the mediums that you use? usually work with Graphite and sometimes Charcoal lol I haven't drawn in so long, but the last Jackson drawing I created was in 2010:
http://i64.tinypic.com/8y9dsy.jpg
I suddenly fell away from drawing but this certainly inspires me.
I should have known because of your artistic mind that you dwelled in this realm also! Please dont delete this blog, it's refreshing to be able to know who is behind the writing and artesty!
I have drawn more since then :)
Author's Response:
Thank you so much! Unfortunately I couldn't see your pic when I pasted that link into the browser :( I'm so glad you like my drawings, luv. I use charcoal, pencil and chalk pastel.
Date: Feb 01, 2016 Title: Chapter 8: Total frustration and 5 reasons why I can't make it through the night
Excuse me ingesting everything that you have written. Allow me to be very serious for the moment.
1. I know exactly how you feel. on more than just this surfaced level. I felt like I was readig my own story. I am not speaking like someone whos just trying to identify but really I live this on a daily. I have kept with me several bottles of Over the counter generic liquid gel sleeping medication because I cannot get an ounce of sleep and if I do fall asleep it doesn't last but for an hour. Usually then I m groggy, sick to my stomach, and wide awake. I can already tell that these will not be enough and I have been on the verge of getting something stronger like Ambian. Currently, I have ingested 3 pills already that would usually put me to sleep and here I am at 3:32am lol go figure right?
I am sorry you seem to be not only battling with Anxiety (I understand you) but also with a compromised immune ystem that seems to put you in some issues. I know you didn't meantion anything as far as what you have beause I know its conidered "classified" information not to be shared wth the internet however, I get a sense if your anything like myself is there a chance for fibromyalgia?? It's awful and nothing seems to help.
You know I know life ad work seems to be a burden, and honestly it brings a sense of worry when you mention giving up on life, I know this blog entery is rather old howver it still worries me I hope you are currently doing much better!
For the record, I wouldn't worry about scaring people away, I wouldn't worry rather or not what you write about your life is either sad and depressing. It's sort of what life is.. Life is cruel, unfair, a pain in the ass and quite messy. I can't envision life being any different, exclusing the good days and happy moments. :) :) Givin you a virtual hug Miss! Hope things are in a better contrast to this!
Author's Response:
Thank you lady luv <3 When I first wrote that, no one gave a crap, lol. It sucks that you can empathize on a personal level, cuz I know this is not easy for anyone :(
Fibromyalgia was one guess . . .no one knows exactly what's wrong with me besides the spinext and knee injury from a car accident. From that I have chronic pain. From the chronic pain, I have a vicodin addiction. You know how it goes lol. But yes, I am doing much better emotionally these days, so no worries, k?
The thing about Ambien: I can definitely empathize with the sleeplessness. I've had insomnia since I was a kid. I have suffered with it my whole life. Ambien has given me a chance to have a life, to keep a job, to take care of my kid. I need the stuff, so I'm never going to be free of it. It is a great medicine, it can give you your life back, but you will never again be able to sleep without it :/ You have to weigh the pros and cons.
Thank you so much for all the love! Big virtual hugs coming your way :) ((( )))
Date: Feb 01, 2016 Title: Chapter 9: Michaelgate
I am actually gong to look into this, very interesting and it's abouut time that we have a documentary that proves this whole extortion attempt was a giant lie. t has my support im going to look for the GoFundMe page later on today here!
btw: I wouldn't delete this blog, if anything even though peole may not comment, it is still being read :) I think you're rather interesting t say the least. and to be quite honest, there could be some like myself who discover your art and reay like what you create and become curious abut the erson behind the fiction (Your descrotions and writing style as you know im a dire hard fan of haha) so just because it hasn't reached the masses so fr doesn't ean it wont. Haha Rome wasnt built and suceeded overnight right?
:)
Author's Response:
That's true, lol! Thank you so much for the encouragement. And I really appreciate you looking into this campaign. This thing is quite important to me. I want the truth about Michael to finally be told so effing bad! I want to shout it on the streets with a megaphone. Of course I won't do that though, lol!
On June 27, 1999, Michael Jackson was performing in a charity benefit concert in Munich Germany. Towards the end of his performance tragedy struck when there was a malfunction with a cable snapped causing him to fall 50 feet. After sustaining serious injuries, he was stabilized then transferred to the States where he had multiple surgeries to mend his battered and broken body. In his depressed state he has become the patient no one can handle.
Jo Quinn is a traveling, tough as nails, Physical Therapist who has been assigned the hardest cases across the country because of her take no prisoners attitude. She jumped at the opportunity to return to where her roots are, move back to New England and take on the special case that no one in the agency wanted.
Will she be the one to finally fight back and help him help himself? Will he finally heal his physical and mental wounds? Can she be the one to finally see him for who he really is and allow him to be himself and get the care he needs? Afterall, he's only human and has his faults just like everyone else. Join them on their emotional journey and find out.
Categories: Award Winning, HIStory: 1995-1999, Adult, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Humor, Romance, Trigger Warning!
Characters: Michael, Original Girl
General Warnings: Erotica, Nudity, Some Scenes of a Sexual Nature, Some Scenes of an Explicit Sexual Nature, Strong Language
Trigger Warnings: Alcohol Abuse
Series: None
Chapters: 77 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 386644 Read Count: 36539
Date: Jun 02, 2016 Title: Chapter 2: Chapter 2
How am I just now reading this??!?!?! Haha I love the change of dynamic between Michael and Jo. Jo definately is someone who doesn't seem to want to back down from him at all! I love ho Michael is quite unbearable when it comes to his demands. On to the next chapter for me!
Author's Response:
glad you are reading..welcome to the story and thanks for reviewing. i'd love to hear what you think.
A 19th century twisted love story and mystery. Also a dark tale of corruption and perversion of justice by the pillars of society and their secret rituals and practices.
Michael Jackson came to London with the African Choir in the 1900s where he was given his Christian name and a full university scholarship. He makes his way in the world with his brilliance, talent and looks, until the corrupt Judge Sneddon condemns him and has him thrown into the insane asylum because of a personal grudge. Years later, Michael returns and the beautiful Annabelle Lee Sneddon, daughter of the pious vulture of the law, stumbles into Michael's life. She falls helplessly in love with the beautiful, mysterious man, but Michael’s once warm heart is now frozen from the cold treatment society has wrought upon it. Out of sheer abhorrence for the judge himself, Michael maliciously plans to use this opportunity to get revenge on him by seducing and conceiving a child with his precious daughter. Will Annabelle Lee be a victim of Michael’s devious scheme, or will she rekindle the warmth and love within his once kind and gentle soul? And what will happen when the judge and his forces of evil catch wind of their forbidden love?
Categories: Award Winning, Adult, Mystery, Romance
Characters: Michael, Original Girl
General Warnings: Erotica, Graphic Depictions of Violence, Nudity, Some Scenes of an Explicit Sexual Nature, Strong Language
Trigger Warnings: Alcohol Abuse, Death, Domestic Abuse, Drug Abuse, Emotional Abuse, Physical Abuse, Racism
Series: None
Chapters: 26 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 36849 Read Count: 4848
Date: Jan 30, 2016 Title: Chapter 1: White Dove and Blank Eyes
My god your writing style is magnificent! I haven't gotten through the chapter but I had to comment due to being drawn in by your rich description in the first paragraph onward!!! What a gem I love it! This is my first rogue Victorian era fiction piece I'm reading and very intrigued!! You've got a new reader! :)
Author's Response:
Thank you! I love your style too. I was wondering where you went for a while, lol! I'very been meaning to catch up on a lot of stories here. Thanks so much for such kind words!
What if your ex-wife becomes obsessed with you and wants you for any price, any measure, no matter how crazy?
Can a fan girl save Michael from his intense relationship, can she break the strong grip his wife has on him and, most importantly, will she teach him to enjoy love again?
Now in the life of Michael Jackson, there are many obstacles to face.
WIll their love be enough?
This is a re-write, and edited form of my first story "Everything for Lust", with the same content. My old username was whatmorecanigive, hence why its in the banner.
Categories: Dangerous: 1991-1993, Lisa Marie Presley: 1994, HIStory: 1995-1999, Adult, Trigger Warning!
Characters: Michael
General Warnings: Some Scenes of a Sexual Nature
Trigger Warnings: Sexual Abuse
Series: None
Chapters: 49 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 77156 Read Count: 5287
Date: Feb 10, 2016 Title: Chapter 5: Chapter 5 The phonecall
There is something to be said about a woman who had to force intimac with her newlywed husband! I am back reading this story without hesitation and I have t say, Lisa comes off as dare I say a little crazy and without boundries!
I enjoy Michael seems to have someone that he can confide in, allbeit new, but still perhaps when you know someone is genuine it is much faster to open up!
Author's Response:
Lisa is definately not in tune with Michael's personal boundaries, she's only listening to her own desires.
Susan is the polar opposite, she's very intuitive and can't let Michael live like that.
I'm glad you're enjoying the story and thank you for the long review! <3
Date: Jan 30, 2016 Title: Chapter 3: Chapter 3 I shouldn't have seen this
Just started reading this story! Absolutely enjoying it!!! Susan is bold for sitting there and watching this train wreck it seems of Lisa and himself! Something seriously wrong when being only a month married and he seems to be regretful of the idea! I'm off to read the next chapters, happy I've got quite a bit to read *gets snacks*! a86;a039;😊
Author's Response:
that is the sweetest comment ever!! You made me so happy, thank you so much! Have a good time reading!😊