sinlge mother of one boy,living in canada,i work with the elderly my main job is recreation theraphy,i enjoy spending time at work because the alzheimer residents  are like children in there lost minds they do not judge or dislike you they are just happy to havea friendly face comming to see them and spend time with them to rediscover lost childhoods,and that is were i am myself discovering what i lost with them i can be and try to enjoy what i didnt,my connection to michael is very real and i know what he felt and what he wanted the most,our connection is not fiction it is at another level of being,and trying to find our place in this world.