I have a confession to make. I felt insecure during the awards. I wanted to feel loved instead of invisible. It was my temper and insecurities that got the best of me. I don't know what got into me at that time. Next time an awards thing rolls around, I probably won't speak or be on if I am busy. I'm moving on and just not feel so insecure about it. It felt like my self esteem had dropped. I'm okay now. If I never get nominated (and possibly I won't because no one apparently cares and likes my stuff except for a few people #youknowwhoyouare), I just won't speak about it or vote.